what is life?

i feel trapped in so many ways
trapped within my mind
trapped within my soul
trapped within my body
trapped within the walls of my house
and of the walls of my doctors

i am ordered to get out to do normal things for my health
but how can i obey?
i am imprisoned forever it seems
i can only sit up for 2 hours at most
i have no time for anything not even needed doctors

i wish for life
i wish to make a difference in tis world
i wish for people know that disabled people are not helpless
but yet hear i am helpless imprisoned and longing to know the world out side
i look through a window into the lives of others
i know not their ways
i know not how they live nor what they do
this is aggravating

healthy people take for granted so many things i struggle to do day by day
i wish to teach them of our life of how we live
how can i do this if i am in bed?
what is my purpose in this life of pain and confusion