So long ago you killed me inside!
You defiled me!
You took my purity and turned me into filthy rags!
I have nothing to offer now because i came to you!
You brought me a rush of euphoria that lasted for so short of time!
You relived me i welcomed your poisonous thinking You were innocent
It tasted so sweet
It felt so good as i drank it in!
You wrapped your arms around me and now i realize Your arms are the chains that
Will forever captivate my mind and pull me down into the pits of darkness!
I am free but you still control me!
You taught me many things
Showed me who i am
When i was scared you embraced me
When i was angry you soothed my mind
I was so alive in your arms but now you drain me of all that i am!
Yes you turned me into a normal teenager i was a prude and for that i guess you did me a favor
but i miss my old self.
Once upon a time i could look at a man innocently,
Once a upon a time so very long ago i could have a C Conversation with out thinking dirty every 30-seconds.
I hated being the girl with a cast iron bra, and a volt around my mind.
Now that its gone i want it all back!
I'd do anything to find that again!
You taught me all about the unspoken
You showed me how to do things i could never imagine!
But now, now you hold me in shackles and wont let me go,
You drag me back kicking and screaming but i cant say anything because you
have poisoned my vocal cords.
I cant understand your motive behind your lies.
You say you own me!
You say you are my friend?
What's your definition of friendship?
All the dirty lies and compromise you put on yourself to look cool
Only turns you into a hoe!
It doesn't make you any higher then them!
Why do you do it?
You say you love God but you show your hearts desire with ever comment made
The food i eat,
The comments made.
What teachers say during their lectures,
All of life is turned into a living porno and it makes me sad!
It makes me sick
Am i just here for kicks?
I've told you time and time again not to speak to me in such vulgar ways!
Does my safety mean nothing to you?
I try and try again not to be forced into this iron madden anymore!
I want out of it more then anything but how can i if your my best friend?
I cant through you away but i cant take all this trash building up with in me!
Am i responsible for you?
You blame me,
You blame the teachers
Your parents
And past relations for transforming your mind into a gutter!
When will you learn to take responsibility for your own actions?
Whose fault is it?
You do the thinking not me!
You do the saying not your parents!
It isn't your family, your ex, your past!
THIS IS YOU!
YOU AND ALL YOU!
Take a moment and think about this because your Ruining your friends lives and dreams by your actions!
All i want is to go back to the days of old,
The time when i could laugh and smile
The place where i was safe
But there is no place to travel back in my life
Will the time machine take me to an imaginary life?
Teleport me to a land where i am clean and undefiled untarnished by the pain of this world!
Oh if there was such a place here on earth i would jump right in for the transformation!
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